I have had so many amazing conversations with people in the last few days about the JaclynHillxMorphe palette. Because I don’t have millions of subscribers, I am very lucky that I have not gotten irrationally attacked by many people. I watched Jeffree Star’s Snapchat rant, y’all know I am a big fan of his so I was a little disappointed in his reaction. I have defended him many times but using the “c” word is something I should not have overlooked in the past. But this is not about Jeffree so, moving on.
Honest reviews of the jaclyn hill x morphe palette
One thing I do agree with Jeffree on is that people have different experiences with the same products. I may love a product you hate. Plenty of people that I respect hate the Velour Liquid Lipsticks and I can’t understand how that is possible because it’s the best formula I have ever used, it’s practically perfect. We all have different skin, different lips, different things we struggle with like dryness, oiliness, etc, so the products are going to look different on different people. What I personally hope for from a brand is that it has continuity in that it looks the same on most people and the quality doesn’t vary.
Some people don’t love the palette but don’t hate it either and that’s ok. I have seen bigger YouTubers who straight up said “buy this palette, you will not be disappointed” that is a direct quote and this person was brutally attacked because she did not fall all over herself being in love with the palette and that is so messed up in my opinion! How can you attack someone for saying “buy this palette, you will not be disappointed”?!?!? Just because you think they need to be more excited about it or because they did take issue with the cheap packaging, which yes it is cheap packaging. Look at your Makeup revolution packaging, or even your other Morphe palettes, and then this cardboard and the packing IS low quality, there is not arguing that. Be honest and stop being reactionary.
I am using the jaclyn Hill x Morphe palette every single day for a week
My video was a first impression. I have had a lot of great conversations about different ways to use this palette! My disappointment came from LOVING Jaclyn and wanting to LOVE this palette, I was not setting out to not like it. Otherwise my attitude would be “ha! I knew it!” not “man, I’m really sad about this.” I expected it to be the best palette I’ve ever had which is why I was disappointed. Many people have said that wetting the colors is the best way to get a color that is exactly like finger swatches. Several people suggested using different brushes. Some people wet with a setting spray like Fix+ so there are lots of ways to use products! I admit to being lazy, I am a regular person who gets up and goes to work so I am not spending 2 hours on my makeup on a weekday morning. I think I am the typical 30-something makeup wearer, that’s the whole basis of my blog. When you work full time, when you have kids, when you have lots of responsibilities like most people do in their 30s and 40s, even some in their 20s, you do not have the time nor the desire to spend hours and hours on your makeup at 6am. Let’s just be real. Even high school students, I know y’all are not getting up and spending 2 hours on your makeup before school. It’s just not realistic.
I decided that I am going to create a different look every day this week using ONLY the Jaclyn Hill x Morphe palette in order to come back with another video and give you all a full review. My first video was my first impression, it was billed as my first impression, I didn’t try to characterize it as anything other than my first impression.
Why are we so mean to strangers on the internet
The most savage attack that I got, and believe me what I have gotten is not anything compared to people with legions of subscribers, the person accused me of “swatching wrong” and also of doing a purposely bad swatch with just one swipe of a brush. That alerted me to the fact they hadn’t watched the live swatches, so I said, did you watch the video? Because I knew people were going to freak out and I live swatched, most of those swatches were multiple swipes with the brush. Then the person admitted they didn’t watch it and they were “tired of all the negativity” and that “influencers have an obligation to tell the truth.” Well duh. I don’t consider myself an influencer, I don’t have hundreds of thousands of subscribers. I’m a real person who loves makeup, loves learning about it, loves trying it – I don’t claim to be a professional makeup artist, I’m not a chemist, I don’t make cosmetics. All those experts are out there and I watch them just like everyone else! It’s funny to me that someone accused me of making a judgment on a product without giving it a chance but made a judgment about me and my swatches without even bothering to see how they were done when it was right there in front of them.
The psychology of social media
It got me wondering about why we feel like it’s ok to be really horrible to strangers on the internet. My actual career is in mental health, I’m a social worker and have worked as a therapist and with mental health nonprofits. I have a master’s degree. So while I might not be an expert in cosmetics I am pretty well versed in human nature – that’s why I examined my own reactions to the Jaclyn Hill x Morphe palette and here’s what I realized:
We feel like we know the people that we follow on social media and watch on youtube, we consider them friends
This is not new information. We peer into the lives of the people we follow on Youtube, Snapchat, Instagram, Twitter – they share intimate moments of their lives with us and tell us some of their innermost thoughts. We have close relationships with them and yet we do not know them, we have never met them in most cases and have never spent time with them. Because of the intimacy of social media though, the experiences we have “shared” with them are akin to those of our family members and close friends, so we defend them as we would our family members and close friends.
I have always felt defensive when people attack Jeffree Star, because I love his lippies and also because I remember him from the Myspace days. I empathize with his struggle being androgynous but not transgender, even now there is really not that many people like Jeffree Star out there. I have felt like an outsider myself so his experience resonates with me. I realized that my degree of overreaction over the quality of the palette had to do with feeling like I had been misled by people I trust – Tati, Jeffree Star, even Jaclyn Hill herself. People that I “spend time with” by watching them on YouTube, people whose opinions I trust based on a “relationship” that is not really real. All of these people run a business powered by YouTube. They are not my friends, they are not my family, while I feel that I know them, I honestly don’t. I probably would not even recognize them on the street without the lights and makeup – well Jeffree is recognizable but I’m just saying would I recognize Tati if she was walking down the street in jeans and minimal makeup? Probably not. So while it did hurt me to feel attacked by strangers, I realized that these people are defending Jaclyn in the irrational way that we all defend our best friend or our sister. While some of them are very young and may not be able to take a step back and look critically at the behavior, I can and so I did.
As Jeffree himself said in his disturbing Snapchat rant, it’s just makeup. It’s just an eyeshadow palette. I did spend $60 to buy Morphe brushes and I don’t have a lot of money for makeup right now. I am opinionated myself which is part of why I love talking about makeup. These are all our opinions, these are our experiences. They don’t have to be the same to both be valid. Chocolate ice cream and vanilla ice cream can both be the best in the eyes of the person who has that flavor as their favorite, even though I might (ok I do) say: “Who would pick vanilla over chocolate? Chocolate is clearly the best!” We aren’t all the same, and that’s ok. I am fine with people who think this palette is a holy grail and have different experiences. I want to share my experience, which is why I talk about makeup on the internet. I want to affirm people who have different experiences as well as those who like me were disappointed. I want to get along, mostly, because there is so much negativity and conflict in the world I would like makeup to be a place that we can come to for solace and strength – where we support one another and encourage each other’s creativity.
Makeup saved my life
Perhaps not so dramatic, but makeup saved my sanity. I became more interested in makeup when I was laid off from a job that I still to this day describe as “my dream job.” I was also going to graduate school and it ended up being better that I wasn’t trying to work at the same time but it was a blow to my self esteem. I’d had struggles with people who formed opinions based on things that weren’t true, like that I had somehow “taken” the job of the person who had it before me, even though that person had quit. It was difficult for me to be disliked but an important lesson in that there’s always going to be someone that doesn’t like you, for whatever reason, and I had to learn to live with that. I grew a lot, I learned a lot, and it helped me be a better person. I was struggling though, I was laid off, I was hurt, and one day I went into Ulta and I picked up some makeup that was more creative than my typical conservative, natural look. I started watching YouTube and subscribed to Jaclyn Hill and Jeffree Star, I bought my first Velour Liquid Lipsticks, I tried a liquid foundation, little by little I began to use makeup as an outlet for my creativity. As I became stronger emotionally, I took more chances with colors and styles that I may not have before. My love for makeup blossomed during a very difficult time in my life and I have continued to grow in my knowledge, technique, and skill. I am by no means a professional, nor will I ever be, but I love makeup and the community that I have found online. There are wonderful people on Facebook and Instagram that I consider friends that I would never have met had it not been for my love of makeup.
Haters gonna hate
I did know going into YouTube that eventually I would get “hate.” People, especially immature people, enjoy trolling to get attention. Any attention, even negative attention, fulfills them. It took a lot longer to get my first “Your [sic] too old for Instagram” comment. I actually expected it on YT first. I expected to be called fat and old, but mostly everyone is wonderful and supportive and positive. I know as I continue to grow, especially with this controversial opinion about the Jaclyn Hill palette, I will likely get more “hate” but that’s just the flip side to the coin I guess. There’s always some good with the bad. I set out to share my opinion and experience and I tried to be as respectful as possible to Jaclyn Hill, someone I do respect and am still a fan of. What people choose to say to me because of my opinion, whether or not they actually take the time to KNOW my opinion, says way more about them than it does about me, even though I do have feelings and yes it hurts.
If you are interested in my opinion and experience, please stay tuned for the conclusion of my week-long use of the Jaclyn Hill palette. And if you don’t care about my opinion or experience, as MannyMUA says, no one is forcing you to watch my YouTube or read my blog so please feel free to leave. With all due respect. We can disagree in constructive, positive ways.