Swatching My Entire Jeffree Star Cosmetics Velour Liquid Lipstick Collection

Spoiler alert! If you haven’t watched my two videos on my top 12 liquid lipstick brands, you will find out my #1 pick in this post.
This is my full review of Jeffree Star Cosmetic’s Velour Liquid Lipsticks. I talk about which colors I like and which I did not, the differences in the formula between colors, how well they hold up during/after eating and drinking, if they’re transfer proof, everything you could want to know!
I swatch the 15 colors in my collection: Mannequin, Celebrity Skin, Gemini, Rose Matter, Doll parts, Calabasas, Candyass, Masochist, Androgyny, Sagittarius, Redrum, Rich Blood, Watermelon Soda, Pumpkin Pie, and Unicorn Blood!

My Top 12 Favorite Liquid Lipstick Brands!

I had to split this into two videos so it wasn’t too long! When I set out to make a video about my top ten liquid lipsticks, I realized that I had twelve different brands so I decided to rank them all. When I don’t like a liquid lipstick, I return it, so these are all brands and formulas that I like – but some I like more than others.

The brands that I rank include: Kat Von D Everlasting Liquid Lipstick, Ofra, Hard Candy Velvet Mousse, Wet n Wild liquid catsuit, Jeffree Star Cosmetics Velour Liquid Lipstick, Tarte tarteist quick dry matte lip paint, Crystal Hearts Cosmetics, Colourpop Ultra Satin, Makeup Revolution Salvation Velvet Lacquer, Milani Amore Metallics, Colourpop Metallic liquid lipstick, Maybelline Vivid Velvet, Palladio Velvet Matte Lip Cream, and Ofra Long Lasting Liquid Lipstick.

My First Storytime Video – I Got the Anastasia Beverly Hills Modern Renaissance Palette Free!

Anastasia Beverly Hills Modern Reniassance PaletteI had been wanting the Anastasia Beverly Hills Modern Renaissance palette for the longest time! At $42 it’s not a cheap palette but the value is definitely there. I had swatched this in Ulta many times and more than once had it in my hand to check out and talked myself out of it because I just didn’t NEED it. Finally when I had the chance to get this for free, from Ulta so yes it is 100% authentic, I jumped on it. It took having the guts to ask a question that could have been considered rude but I figured nothing ventured, nothing gained!
If you’d like to hear the story of how I got it for free, in my very first storytime video, check it out! It’s not clickbait, I do have to warn you it’s probably not something that you can replicate.

My Instagram Social Experiment Results – How To Get Followers Without Being Shady

If you missed part one of this post, describing what my experiment was and why I did it check it out here. Tl;dr it: I noticed I had literally hundreds of accounts following and then unfollowing me quickly so I identified some red flags for accounts that do it and I decided to try it myself.

Does follow unfollow really get you lots of instagram followers?

I was curious after 200+ accounts followed/unfollowed me, most following and unfollowing within 24 hours, does this shady practice actually get you lots of followers? Are people that dumb because I caught on pretty quickly..? So I gave it a try. I followed ten accounts a day for a week using specific criteria on ones that I thought would be most likely to follow back. As I stated in my last post, I have removed the name and username of the example accounts that follow/unfollow because it is not my intention to call anyone specific out.
Most of the people I talk with on instagram, my followers and those I consider friends, seem to agree that follow/unfollow is rude, shady, or downright evil! So why do so many accounts do it? Does it really get you tons of new followers?

I followed accounts on instagram to get more followers

Boring white generic instagram feed exampleUnlike the follow/unfollow accounts I did not unfollow people immediately. However I wasn’t interested in all 70 of the accounts I followed so I will be unfollowing some of them. No disrespect to any of those accounts – not every account produces quality photos and as our feeds become clogged we do have to pick and choose who we want to see. I don’t follow accounts that only post giveaways for example, because I like to see photos of what people makeup are using and the looks they are creating with it! It’s also my personal preference but I’m not a fan of the super white, generic, lifestyle type accounts – they all look the same and it this point that look is pretty boring and overdone. I know you know the ones I mean! I like personality, not feeds where I can’t tell one photo from another user’s and where it looks like you’re just trying to appeal to the most number of people. No judgment that is just my preference, to me makeup = COLOR!
I am not unfollowing anyone who followed me back however! 🙂

how can you get more instagram followers

Here is the result of my follow/unfollow experiment.
I followed 70 accounts and 15 followed back. That is a lot of work for not much payoff! I think it could be that people don’t automatically follow back anymore because we are so used to people unfollowing and following just to get the follow. It’s possible some people looked at my feed and weren’t interested and decided not to follow back. Probably some don’t use instagram daily. Overall the time it took to follow and unfollow didn’t seem worth it to me, of course I made an effort to see who had actually followed back and didn’t unfollow them – it is probably quicker for people that don’t care about following anyone and just batch follow and unfollow. That to me still just feels shady and douchey, even with a low payoff I guess it would work to get followers if you are doing it with hundreds of accounts but I can’t see doing that myself.
Unfortunately the best way to get followers is a slow way – to create great content and to slowly build a REAL base of engaged followers over time. I will be sharing the results of my giveaway experiment in the future so stay tuned for those stats!
 

How To Get More Instagram Followers Without Being a Douchebag

I recently did a giveaway on my Instagram. I had heard from friends that people will unfollow you after they don’t win and I had seen on other accounts that people say they track that so people can’t enter future giveaways if they unfollow. I decided it would make sense to do that, so I downloaded a couple “follower tracker” apps. Since my account is small and I don’t make money doing this I wanted only free apps and after using a couple I liked “Followers for Instagram – Followers And Likes” by Social Mana LLC so I kept it and uninstalled the rest.

Follow and unfollow trying to get more instagram followers

Getting more instagram followers app that tracks followersIt was once I started monitoring that I realized how many accounts follow and then unfollow 12-24 hours later. It seemed like the vast majority of instagram followers were unfollowing soon after following. I am sure you have noticed this yourself but what I didn’t realize before I started using the app was the huge number of instagram accounts that do this! I have 326 followers right now and incredibly, over 200  have followed and unfollowed!
Since the app tracks everything, I can see the vast majority unfollow soon after following so it’s not an engagement thing – the accounts and people that actually care about following me keep following so it’s not a content issue.
 

You can spot who is going to unfollow and just not follow back

Follow unfollow instagram app accounts with thousands of followers tend to unfollow quicklyAs far as I can tell, everyone thinks follow/unfollow is uncool and not a good way to try to get followers, yet plenty of accounts do it. I actually have three instagram accounts and beginning to track unfollows and engagement I can easily tell who is going to unfollow me quickly and I’ve started just not following back unless the account actually interests me. I do unfollow when someone unfollows me, it seems only fair.
Red flags for accounts that are likely going to do the evil follow/unfollow are having thousands of followers but only following a few accounts. I want to show examples but I’m not trying to call out accounts so I have removed names and usernames. The picture to the right (ironically calls herself “genuine” but followed unfollowed within 24 hours) has 15,000+ followers but doesn’t follow many so I did not follow it back. I was not surprised to notice they unfollowed me soon after following.

Red flags for accounts that will unfollow you

Business accounts nearly always unfollow. Unless it is a brand that you have heard of before and been interacting with (i.e. you followed them first and are familiar with the brand, they have shared your content, they have commented on a post, etc.) they will likely unfollow you. I never follow back a brand that isn’t one I know and use such as Tarte, Covergirl, Maybelline, BH Cosmetics, etc.
The “brand” in the photo of the left doesn’t actually seem to be a real brand and may actually be a spam account. They have over 4,000 followers and are only following 3 and only have 2 posts which is another red flag! I did not follow this account because it did not interest me. It unfollowed me within a day.

Accounts that cover Different SUbjects than you will likely unfollow you

Another red flag is a large account that is not about what your account is about. My accounts cover makeup, fitness and health, and psychology mental health, respectively. If a predominantly fitness account follows my makeup account, that’s a red flag to me that they will be unfollowing me because my subject matter is different than theirs. I have also had really random genres such as sports cars follow my makeup account and again that was a red flag that they would unfollow. I have lots of “lifestyle” accounts and fashion accounts follow me and every single one unfollows.

Does follow unfollow get you more instagram followers?

Follow unfollow on instagram red flags to help get followers and avoid unfollowsI was curious after watching hundreds of people unfollow me. Does follow/unfollow REALLY get you a bunch of followers? So I decided to try it myself. Nothing outlandish, for one week I followed ten accounts that I found through hashtags I have used or on the “explore” page of Instagram.
I wanted to make sure to keep it to accounts that were similar to mine so I had the following criteria for those I would follow with no other reason than for them to follow me back:

  1. They had to be makeup focused
  2. They had to have around the same number of followers as me. The reasoning for this is that accounts with thousands of followers are unlikely to follow back in general.
  3. They had to have recent instagram photos, within the last 24-28 hours. If someone doesn’t post regularly they may not get on instagram daily so they wouldn’t have the opportunity to follow back during the experiment.

Those were my only criteria, follow accounts like mine, with a similar number of followers, who were posting similar content. I followed ten accounts a day for a week.
Stay tuned for my results!

Jaclyn Hill Hillsters Do Not Play! Angry Fans Attack Over Honest Reviews of Jaclyn Hill x Morphe

I have had so many amazing conversations with people in the last few days about the JaclynHillxMorphe palette. Because I don’t have millions of subscribers, I am very lucky that I have not gotten irrationally attacked by many people. I watched Jeffree Star’s Snapchat rant, y’all know I am a big fan of his so I was a little disappointed in his reaction. I have defended him many times but using the “c” word is something I should not have overlooked in the past. But this is not about Jeffree so, moving on.

Honest reviews of the jaclyn hill x morphe palette

Jaclyn Hill Morphe palette honest fan review and swatches JaclynHillxMorphe PaletteOne thing I do agree with Jeffree on is that people have different experiences with the same products. I may love a product you hate. Plenty of people that I respect hate the Velour Liquid Lipsticks and I can’t understand how that is possible because it’s the best formula I have ever used, it’s practically perfect. We all have different skin, different lips, different things we struggle with like dryness, oiliness, etc, so the products are going to look different on different people. What I personally hope for from a brand is that it has continuity in that it looks the same on most people and the quality doesn’t vary.
Some people don’t love the palette but don’t hate it either and that’s ok. I have seen bigger YouTubers who straight up said “buy this palette, you will not be disappointed” that is a direct quote and this person was brutally attacked because she did not fall all over herself being in love with the palette and that is so messed up in my opinion! How can you attack someone for saying “buy this palette, you will not be disappointed”?!?!? Just because you think they need to be more excited about it or because they did take issue with the cheap packaging, which yes it is cheap packaging. Look at your Makeup revolution packaging, or even your other Morphe palettes, and then this cardboard and the packing IS low quality, there is not arguing that. Be honest and stop being reactionary.

I am using the jaclyn Hill x Morphe palette every single day for a week

Sunset look using Jaclyn Hill Morphe palette tutorial

I used the Jaclyn Hill x Morphe palette to create this sunset look

My video was a first impression. I have had a lot of great conversations about different ways to use this palette! My disappointment came from LOVING Jaclyn and wanting to LOVE this palette, I was not setting out to not like it. Otherwise my attitude would be “ha! I knew it!” not “man, I’m really sad about this.” I expected it to be the best palette I’ve ever had which is why I was disappointed. Many people have said that wetting the colors is the best way to get a color that is exactly like finger swatches. Several people suggested using different brushes. Some people wet with a setting spray like Fix+ so there are lots of ways to use products! I admit to being lazy, I am a regular person who gets up and goes to work so I am not spending 2 hours on my makeup on a weekday morning. I think I am the typical 30-something makeup wearer, that’s the whole basis of my blog. When you work full time, when you have kids, when you have lots of responsibilities like most people do in their 30s and 40s, even some in their 20s, you do not have the time nor the desire to spend hours and hours on your makeup at 6am. Let’s just be real. Even high school students, I know y’all are not getting up and spending 2 hours on your makeup before school. It’s just not realistic.
I decided that I am going to create a different look every day this week using ONLY the Jaclyn Hill x Morphe palette in order to come back with another video and give you all a full review. My first video was my first impression, it was billed as my first impression, I didn’t try to characterize it as anything other than my first impression.

Why are we so mean to strangers on the internet

Steel Magnolias If you can't say anything nice to say come sit by meThe most savage attack that I got, and believe me what I have gotten is not anything compared to people with legions of subscribers, the person accused me of “swatching wrong” and also of doing a purposely bad swatch with just one swipe of a brush. That alerted me to the fact they hadn’t watched the live swatches, so I said, did you watch the video? Because I knew people were going to freak out and I live swatched, most of those swatches were multiple swipes with the brush. Then the person admitted they didn’t watch it and they were “tired of all the negativity” and that “influencers have an obligation to tell the truth.”  Well duh. I don’t consider myself an influencer, I don’t have hundreds of thousands of subscribers. I’m a real person who loves makeup, loves learning about it, loves trying it – I don’t claim to be a professional makeup artist, I’m not a chemist, I don’t make cosmetics. All those experts are out there and I watch them just like everyone else! It’s funny to me that someone accused me of making a judgment on a product without giving it a chance but made a judgment about me and my swatches without even bothering to see how they were done when it was right there in front of them.

The psychology of social media

It got me wondering about why we feel like it’s ok to be really horrible to strangers on the internet. My actual career is in mental health, I’m a social worker and have worked as a therapist and with mental health nonprofits. I have a master’s degree. So while I might not be an expert in cosmetics I am pretty well versed in human nature – that’s why I examined my own reactions to the Jaclyn Hill x Morphe palette and here’s what I realized:

We feel like we know the people that we follow on social media and watch on youtube, we consider them friends

the psychology of social media why are we mean to strangers on the internetThis is not new information. We peer into the lives of the people we follow on Youtube, Snapchat, Instagram, Twitter – they share intimate moments of their lives with us and tell us some of their innermost thoughts. We have close relationships with them and yet we do not know them, we have never met them in most cases and have never spent time with them. Because of the intimacy of social media though, the experiences we have “shared” with them are akin to those of our family members and close friends, so we defend them as we would our family members and close friends.
I have always felt defensive when people attack Jeffree Star, because I love his lippies and also because I remember him from the Myspace days. I empathize with his struggle being androgynous but not transgender, even now there is really not that many people like Jeffree Star out there. I have felt like an outsider myself so his experience resonates with me. I realized that my degree of overreaction over the quality of the palette had to do with feeling like I had been misled by people I trust – Tati, Jeffree Star, even Jaclyn Hill herself. People that I “spend time with” by watching them on YouTube, people whose opinions I trust based on a “relationship” that is not really real. All of these people run a business powered by YouTube. They are not my friends, they are not my family, while I feel that I know them, I honestly don’t. I probably would not even recognize them on the street without the lights and makeup – well Jeffree is recognizable but I’m just saying would I recognize Tati if she was walking down the street in jeans and minimal makeup? Probably not. So while it did hurt me to feel attacked by strangers, I realized that these people are defending Jaclyn in the irrational way that we all defend our best friend or our sister. While some of them are very young and may not be able to take a step back and look critically at the behavior, I can and so I did.
As Jeffree himself said in his disturbing Snapchat rant, it’s just makeup. It’s just an eyeshadow palette. I did spend $60 to buy Morphe brushes and I don’t have a lot of money for makeup right now. I am opinionated myself which is part of why I love talking about makeup. These are all our opinions, these are our experiences. They don’t have to be the same to both be valid. Chocolate ice cream and vanilla ice cream can both be the best in the eyes of the person who has that flavor as their favorite, even though I might (ok I do) say: “Who would pick vanilla over chocolate? Chocolate is clearly the best!” We aren’t all the same, and that’s ok. I am fine with people who think this palette is a holy grail and have different experiences. I want to share my experience, which is why I talk about makeup on the internet. I want to affirm people who have different experiences as well as those who like me were disappointed. I want to get along, mostly, because there is so much negativity and conflict in the world I would like makeup to be a place that we can come to for solace and strength – where we support one another and encourage each other’s creativity.

Makeup saved my life

green makeup geek eyeshadow typhoon enchanted MUG shadowsPerhaps not so dramatic, but makeup saved my sanity. I became more interested in makeup when I was laid off from a job that I still to this day describe as “my dream job.” I was also going to graduate school and it ended up being better that I wasn’t trying to work at the same time but it was a blow to my self esteem. I’d had struggles with people who formed opinions based on things that weren’t true, like that I had somehow “taken” the job of the person who had it before me, even though that person had quit. It was difficult for me to be disliked but an important lesson in that there’s always going to be someone that doesn’t like you, for whatever reason, and I had to learn to live with that. I grew a lot, I learned a lot, and it helped me be a better person. I was struggling though, I was laid off, I was hurt, and one day I went into Ulta and I picked up some makeup that was more creative than my typical conservative, natural look. I started watching YouTube and subscribed to Jaclyn Hill and Jeffree Star, I bought my first Velour Liquid Lipsticks, I tried a liquid foundation, little by little I began to use makeup as an outlet for my creativity. As I became stronger emotionally, I took more chances with colors and styles that I may not have before. My love for makeup blossomed during a very difficult time in my life and I have continued to grow in my knowledge, technique, and skill. I am by no means a professional, nor will I ever be, but I love makeup and the community that I have found online. There are wonderful people on Facebook and Instagram that I consider friends that I would never have met had it not been for my love of makeup.

Haters gonna hate

If you like it let it be and if you don't please do the same cause i fight with love and I laugh with rage you gotta live light enough to see the humor and long enough to see some changeI did know going into YouTube that eventually I would get “hate.” People, especially immature people, enjoy trolling to get attention. Any attention, even negative attention, fulfills them. It took a lot longer to get my first “Your [sic] too old for Instagram” comment. I actually expected it on YT first. I expected to be called fat and old, but mostly everyone is wonderful and supportive and positive. I know as I continue to grow, especially with this controversial opinion about the Jaclyn Hill palette, I will likely get more “hate” but that’s just the flip side to the coin I guess. There’s always some good with the bad. I set out to share my opinion and experience and I tried to be as respectful as possible to Jaclyn Hill, someone I do respect and am still a fan of. What people choose to say to me because of my opinion, whether or not they actually take the time to KNOW my opinion, says way more about them than it does about me, even though I do have feelings and yes it hurts.
If you are interested in my opinion and experience, please stay tuned for the conclusion of my week-long use of the Jaclyn Hill palette. And if you don’t care about my opinion or experience, as MannyMUA says, no one is forcing you to watch my YouTube or read my blog so please feel free to leave. With all due respect. We can disagree in constructive, positive ways.
Much love,
Stacey.

HillsterGate – Angry Fans Attack Me Over Honest Reviews of Jaclyn Hill x Morphe Palette

The last two days have been a little overwhelming. I did my usual Monday video and this week it was a review of my new Jaclyn Hill x Morphe palette. I was so excited to receive this item and after using it I was disappointed. I swatched the palette just like I had planned to, but I used a brush instead of a finger to show how different the colors looked. What happened after that honestly really surprised me.

I was disappointed in the palette and i said so

Jaclyn Hill Morphe palette honest fan review and swatches JaclynHillxMorphe PaletteWhat surprised me was that I was accused of saying things that I never said by people who admitted to never watching my video or reading what I had said about the palette. I was and am prepared to stand by what I have said but I’m not sure what I can do about people deciding I’ve said something I haven’t based on zero information. I can’t force you to watch my video or read my blog but I will not take responsibility for what you think I said based on absolutely nothing. That, I think, was the hardest part for me. The attitude was “I know what you said so I don’t need to watch” but seriously, WTF? Are you kidding me?
What I said about the palette is that I am disappointed with it. I was then and I am now. Disappointment is a feeling – you can’t tell me how I should feel about this palette. I feel how I feel and I have every right to feel that way. I said that I would not buy the palette again, that is my opinion and again I’m allowed to feel that way. That doesn’t mean you have to be disappointed with the palette – but I am.

i was attacked and accused of saying things i never said

People have attacked me and said some really crazy things about me and my video.

  • I have been accused of calling the palette “crap” which I did not ever say anything remotely like that but this was by someone who admitted to not watching my video or reading anything I said about it.
  • I have been told that I “swatched wrong” which was really a cop-out way to say what others came right out and said, that I purposely made the swatches look bad.
  • I was told that I don’t know how to use makeup.
  • I was told that I was using the wrong brush(es).
  • I was accused of “putting negativity out into the world.”
  • Someone told me that I didn’t buy my palette from Morphe because it looked like a knock-off.

My jaclynhillxmorphe palette is absolutely real

I was told that I bought a fake knock-off palette and was pretending it was real. Someone said I must not have gotten it from Morphe. Here are screencaps of my order confirmation and my delivery confirmation in case someone thinks that I canceled my order. I was online at 10am central time to get this palette and if you feel like it, you can go look at my instagram and see photos of me buying it on the day that it went on sale.
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JaclynHillxMorphe Screencap Receipt of My Order confirmation and delivery authentic Morphe paletteJaclynHillxMorphe Screencap Receipt of My Order confirmation and delivery authentic Morphe palette

I have no reason to lie about my jaclynhillxmorphe palette

I have nothing to gain from making the swatches look bad on purpose. I have not gotten thousands of views on my video. I am not an “influencer” I don’t claim to be, I think you need a couple thousand followers before you can claim to influence anyone. I am a person that loves makeup and talking about it and I created my YouTube channel to talk about makeup. I started my channel to have fun.
The things people are accusing me of are a lot of work to go through, honestly it’s a bit crazy to think that anyone would go to the trouble of buying a fake palette pretending it was real, taking the time to do swatches, and trying to pass it off as real. Or really acting like I’m so stupid I can’t stick my finger into an eyeshadow pan and wipe it on my arm. This isn’t rocket science. You put a brush in an eyeshadow pan, get some product on your brush, and wipe it on your eye. Two year olds literally do this.

for every mean attack there were three people encouraging me

The bright side of all this is that for every person saying horrible things to me, there were 3 or 4 either being nice even though they disagreed with me, or encouraging me saying they also didn’t love the palette. Most of the people that disagreed were very respectful and I got a lot of people telling me different things to try or ways to use the palette. Some were things that made sense: try synthetic brushes not natural fibers, try a different style of brush, wet the brush. Some were ridiculously complicated: scrape off some of the eyeshadow from the pan, mix it with setting spray, create a kind of paste and put that on your eye.
No offense to the person that came up with that but that’s too much trouble to have to go to so that a product looks like it is supposed to. If you have to go to all of that work to make your eyeshadow look like the swatches, there is an issue with the product. There’s not really a learning curve to eyeshadow. If a special brush needs to be used then Morphe should have specified and sold it. If I can’t buy a palette, pick up any eye shadow brush that I own, and make it look like it was advertised to look, that to me is an issue. I appreciate all of the people who were nice and gave suggestions. Even though there were definitely more nice people than angry, mean, attacking people, those attacks hurt me. I did nothing wrong and I was accused of horrible things, of fraud, of being an idiot. I am a person and those things hurt my feelings.

even those that love the palette admit there are flaws

Even people who said they love the palette admitted there were issues. One fan said that the darker colors stained her eyelids but that it faded after a day. I had several of the colors, pretty much the whole last row, stain my skin when I swatched so this did not surprise me. I mentioned it in my first impression post. People that love it and have used it do know it has some fallout, that doesn’t bother some people. People that love it and have used it agree that some colors are better than others. 200,000 people bought these palettes. There’s no way everyone is going to absolutely love everything about it and say it’s perfect, holy grail, no flaws. That’s ok. That does not mean you are wrong for loving the palette. I never said anyone was wrong for loving the palette, I just said I didn’t.

i have used the palette for four days in a row and my opinion has not changed i am disappointed in the jaclyn hill x morphe palette

Let me reiterate what I DID actually say about the JaclynHillxMorphe palette: I said that I was disappointed. I said that it was Good but not Great. I said I give it 3 out of 5 stars and 1 star for packaging. I said the packaging was cardboard, looked cheap, is likely not durable, already had a stain on it because it’s white, and that you could see the glue marks. No one argued those points with me btw, because they’re pretty much undeniable. My impression is basically the same after creating 4 different looks with this palette and using it as my only eyeshadow for four days:

  • some colors are better than others
  • the mattes are more pigmented and blendable than the shimmer/metallic/foil shades
  • some of the colors don’t really show up
  • the people who said different brushes produce different results are correct, some brushes make the product look better than others. I imagine this is true for literally every eyeshadow palette in existence

What I realized after using it for multiple days is that some of the shadows irritate my eyelids. I don’t have specially sensitive skin and I don’t avoid certain ingredients like Talc or Parabens but something in some of these shadows irritates my skin and makes my eyelid sore and itchy.
Here are some looks I created this week with the Jaclyn Hill x Morphe palette
Sunset makeup look with Jaclyn Hill x Morphe palette JaclynHillxMorphe Red pink makeup look with Jaclyn Hill x Morphe palette JaclynHillxMorphe

final thoughts

I am a pretty positive person and I try to stay positive so this is the last time that I will be discussion this or thinking about this because as Jeffree Star says, this is makeup people, it’s supposed to be FUN. It’s not that serious. I feel exactly the same about this palette as I did before but I have very different feelings about people on the internet. Having a makeup channel and blog is a lot less fun for me than it was a week ago. I doubt that I will ever post anything again without wondering, at least briefly, if I’m going to get attacked for it. I will however always speak my mind, give my opinion, and tell MY TRUTH about all the products I try. I go to YouTube for honest reviews and that’s what I intend to keep giving. I won’t be bullied into being less than honest. We all have different skin types and tones, different issues like dry or oily skin, discoloration, age, wrinkles, etc etc etc. Nothing is going to be exactly the same for everyone. I have never said anything other than these are my opinions, my impressions, my experiences, and my feelings.
I have never said a negative thing about Jaclyn Hill before today and I doubt I will after. I never said anything bad about the palette only that it had some issues and that I didn’t love it. I still don’t love it. I will use some of the colors, but it’s never going to be my holy grail. I think Jaclyn worked hard on it, I will buy her future collabs but I’m not a huge fan of Morphe. I didn’t love the brushes I bought from them either, my BH Cosmetics brushes are better quality and they were cheaper. I definitely am still a Jaclyn Hill fan but I don’t consider myself a “Hillster.” After Hillstergate I want nothing to do with her rabid following who refuse to let anyone say anything less than positive and attack people who say things that aren’t even negative. I haven’t even gotten a fraction of the hate of YouTubers like Samantha Ravndahl who said “buy this palette, you won’t be disappointed” and got viciously attacked because she wasn’t head over heels in love with the palette. It’s truthfully extremely messed up. I think that people need to grow up, because I know some of these misguided trolls are actually young teens, and some maybe need some counseling for emotional problems. If you feel personally attacked because someone doesn’t like a makeup item that you do, you need to examine why you are overreacting to an extreme. I think we could all benefit from treating other people the way we would like to be treated and not being mean to people we disagree with just because they are strangers on the internet. Find some empathy for other humans.
This is the last thing I will say about Hillstergate. Comments have been disabled.

Jaclyn Hill x Morphe The Good, The Bad, and The Fallout – An Unbiased Fan Review

JaclynHillxMorphe palette Jaclyn Hill Morphe palette honest fan review with swatchesAnyone that follows me on Instagram knows that I have been excited about this palette since a release date was FINALLY announced! Jaclyn Hill was one of the first YouTubers I ever watched and subscribed to and I have never understood all of the hate that she gets. I think she is pretty and sweet. I wanted Champagne Pop but it always ended up that I didn’t have extra money for makeup when it came out so I was determined to get the JaclynHillxMorphe palette.
Please note that if you just attack me and have not even bothered to watch the live swatching before you tell me I “swatched wrong” or if you call me names or use profanity your comment will be deleted and I will block/ban you from all my social media. You do not have to agree with me but we all need to be respectful of each other as human beings with feelings and different experiences.

Jaclynhillxmorphe palette so much hype is it worth it?

JaclynHillxMorphe Jaclyn Hill Morphe palette honest review and swatchesOnce I saw Jaclyn’s video I knew for sure I was buying the palette, no matter what. Like, makeup before food if necessary! Jeffree Star also reviewed it and liked it, I was seeing all of this mind boggling swatches from influencers – many of whom got the palette for free and reminded everyone to use their Morphe discount code when purchasing. I used Jaclyn’s.
I don’t think anyone had any idea that they would sell 200,000 units in 45 minutes. I was online at 10am (8am pacific time) had it in my cart by 10:04, like I said I was determined to get it. I was very lucky, I got a shipment notification later that day and my palette shipped quickly. I know a couple people who are still waiting!

the colors in the jaclyn hill morphe palette do not look like the swatches

I have to be honest. I used the palette for two looks that I wasn’t happy with and then I did a tutorial for the sunset inspired look that I also wore in my YouTube first impression review. My main problem was that the colors didn’t look on my eyes anything like they looked on my arm when I swatched them. I decided that I would swatch the colors with a brush during my review, something I have never done before.
I was really shocked by the results! Halfway through the first row of colors, I realized I needed to put a finger swatch next to each brush swatch to show the difference – because it was HUGE. For the most part, the colors applied with a brush look nothing like how the colors look in a swatch applied with a finger. You can watch my live swatches in my Youtube video. If you’re only interested in photos, those are below the video.
https://youtu.be/XxytYbg1yBg

Swatches of the jaclynhillxmorphe palette with brush and finger swatch

On each swatch, I have listed the color name and indicated which swatch was made with a brush and which one was made with a finger. You can watch me live swatch these in my Youtube video above. After I swatched them on camera, I snapped a picture. I will also note that my palette did not come with an insert listing the colors names, I emailed Morphe but as of today have gotten no response. I did see that they had tweeted an apology and a link but not responding to emails is very bad customer service in my opinion. I will update if I ever receive an email reply. Update: I never received an email but I did receive in the mail today (7/05/17) a postcard with the color names on one side and a photo of Jaclyn with the palette on the other. I think it was outstanding customer service to just go ahead and mail those out to everyone. I’m happy to have received it. Thank you, Morphe! I am pretty sure that these color names are correct but I was going back and forth between the image Morphe tweeted and my palette so if any are mixed up please let me know!
The top or first row of colors has the shades: Enlight, Beam, Silk Creme, M.F.E.O., Faint, Sissy,  and Little Lady. Enlight is very shimmery and in real life it looks about the same as Beam just more shimmery. The color in this row that most disappointed me in brush versus finger swatch was Little Lady. It is stunning when applied with a finger but is not very impressive with a brush. Sissy also looks more like a foil shadow, I will try these shades with my Makeup Geek foil brush and report back on whether or not they do better with a foiled shadow brush. Both also took quite a bit of blending back and forth to get even color.
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The second row of shadows contains the shades: Creamsicle, Butter, Pooter, Pukey, Hunts, Firework, and Queen. Out of all these shades, it is again the foil looking shade, Queen, that I find most disappointing in brush vs finger swatch. Queen and Firework were both very patchy and I did have to rub my brush back and forth quite a bit to get the color more even. The mattes in this row are better looking and better quality than the shimmer shades although there was quite a bit of “kickback” in the pan from picking up the shades – only Hunts had fallout when applied.
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The third row of the palette is eyeshadow colors: Obsessed, S.B.N., Hillster, Roxanne, Jacz, Buns, and Cranapple. My least favorite color in this row is Buns it goes on really patchy and had a lot of fallout. Out of all the rows, these colors had brush and finger swatches that were the most similar. I did find that the reddish orange colors stained my skin after just a couple minutes wearing them so I am interested to see what happens after a whole day of wearing them on my eyes!
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In the fourth row of eye shadow colors we have: Royalty, Twerk, Hustle, Meeks, 24/7, Chip, and Mocha. Chip was awful with fallout, you can actually see all the fallout on my arm from the finger swatch but that is because I went in with my finger after using the brush. That fallout was due to using the brush. 24/7 was the most disappointing one in this row from finger vs brush swatch differences but Hustle was disappointing with both. If you watch the live swatching in my video, you can see that I actually went back in to Hustle with the brush because it wasn’t showing up on camera at all with the first try.
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The last row is the most pigmented with the exception of Diva which I did have to go back into in order to make it show up. The last row colors are: Pool Party, Jada, Diva, Enchanted, Central Park, Soda Pop, and Abyss. Out of all of the swatches, Jada was closest to the same color with brush and finger swatching. The darkest colors had a good bit of fallout which is not a good thing when you’re putting them on your eyelids! These colors also left stains on my skin after swatching.
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My overall first impression of the jaclyn hill x morphe palette

Jaclyn Hill Morphe palette honest fan review and swatches JaclynHillxMorphe Palette This palette is good but not great. Some colors are just ok but some colors are very nice which leaves me with “good” for an overall. I’d give it 3 out of 5 stars. The mattes are easier to work with and more pigmented than shimmery and metallic shades. I think that if rather than going with the giant Morphe palette they had done a palette half this size like the Kathleen Lights x Morphe palette and just chose the best colors out of these 35 that it would be a much stronger palette.
I think the palette is priced too high for what it is. As I state in my video review, the palette is cardboard which makes it less durable than most of my other (even drugstore priced) palettes. The message from Jaclyn to her subscribers is just glued onto the top of the palette and you can see the glue marks. You can easily see that in my photo to the left. For packaging I give it 1 out of 5 stars. I have used the palette 4 times now and it already has a stain on the outside because it is white cardboard. If it were plastic that would wipe off rather than staining. You are unfortunately paying for Jaclyn’s name and I think if it were closer to the normal Morphe price point it would be a much better value. I think that Morphe could have and should have offered free shipping on this palette, in my opinion $75 to get free shipping is excessive and much higher than the industry standard.

I am disappointed in jaclyn hill x morphe because it was overhyped by influencers

I think my expectation of this palette was too high, but it was high based on all the video reviews I watched. Seeing the swatches that Jaclyn had in her reveal, that Jeffree Star did, that MannyMua did, I was expecting a palette that was on the same level of higher end products like Tarte Tarteist Pro and Anastasia Beverly Hills. Morphe is not a high end brand, they are closer to a drug store brand. When I compare this palette to Makeup Revolution or Catrice, which are more similar brands, it is relatively the same quality. I was expecting a prestige level product based on all of the reviews and the influencer swatches and that led to me having unrealistic expectations as to what this palette should look like.

The bottom line on the jaclyn hill x morphe palette, should you buy when it restocks?

I think whether or not you love this palette depends on who you are. If you have many high end palettes, as I do, you might want to skip this. If this is going to be your most expensive, high end palette, as is the case with many people I’ve talked to about it, you will not be disappointed. I think either way you should go into it expecting it to be a medium-quality product. It’s a step up from a drugstore product but it is not going to beat your prestige quality products. I’m not even going to mention very high quality products like Viseart or Natasha Denona here because clearly it’s not even in the same universe with super high quality palettes. It is what it is. I think you will enjoy it and not be disappointed in it as long as you are not expecting it to blow your mind.
I feel like it’s necessary to say – I still love Jaclyn, I am still a fan. I have not unsubscribed from her YouTube or unfollowed her on any social media. I will support her future collabs, I just will not be buying any Morphe products in the future because for me, the quality isn’t there.

Boxycharm Downtown Charm June 2017 Unboxing Plus a Review of Realher Playbook 1 Be Your Own Kind of Beauty Review

I got my first Boxycharm box in June 2017 and I loved it so much I had to make a video about it!
This article and video contain full spoilers for the Downtown Charm box.

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The Downtown Charm Boxycharm box

Boxycharm Downtown Charm box June 2017 Review I had been thinking about subscribing to Boxycharm since I first heard of it. The products are full size, which is pretty rare for a box that only costs $21 a month. Several other boxes do full sized products but they’re quarterly boxes not monthly and they are more expensive.
I typically look at spoilers and reviews on My Subscription Addiction and when I saw the spoilers for this box I really wanted it. I was hesitant to subscribe because even though the price is really reasonable I wasn’t sure that I should commit to a monthly charge right now. I told a friend I thought I would just buy the Realher palette since that was the item that Boxycharm Downtown Charm June 2017 Realher Playbook 1 Be Your Own Kind of Beauty Eyeshadow Palette I wanted the most. When I went to their website, I saw that the palettes retail for $28 each so the entire Boxycharm box was less than buying the palette on its own! That sealed it for me.
I was definitely not disappointed in my first box! I describe each item and tell you what I like most in my YouTube video so please check that out. I go into detail about the Realher palette. There were three that you could have gotten, Realher Playbook 1 Be Your Own Kind of Beauty, 2 Do Your Squats, or 3 I Feel Beautiful. I really liked 1 and 3 the best so I was pleased to receive Playbook 1. I would have been happy with either of those. I will likely buy Playbook 3 I Feel Beautiful sometime in the future. I really like that Realher’s gross profits are all donated to a charity that empowers women and girls. This is the second look I created with the palette, I absolutely love it and I got so many compliments! If you are interested in subscribing, consider using my URL to do so, I will get points that I can use on items in the Boxycharm store.  My look with Realher playbook 1 Be your own kind of beauty eyeshadow palette with Jeffree Star Summer 2016 Collection Velour Liquid Lipstick Watermelon Soda

Jeffree Star Issues a Statement on Racism Videos From His Past But Is He Still Racist?

It’s funny that this was timed this way but I actually took issue with someone using Jeffree Star to drive traffic to their website while claiming to take issue with him and the way that he acts. Usually I don’t say things to strangers, I have a very strong facebook rule of: “don’t argue with strangers on the internet.” Occasionally I am moved to break my rule and I was not rude, I just said that I felt like that was hypocritical. If there are people I don’t like or don’t respect, you will not see me making money or trying to get hits off their name, that just leaves a bad taste in my mouth.

Do you condone racism?

Every time a release gets closer, the “I don’t buy Jeffree Star products because he is a racist” comments start. My boyfriend asked me what happened that people say that, because I am a very open and accepting person and I do not tolerate racism, sexism, heterosexism, homophobia, xenophobia, religious persecution, etc etc etc in my life. I am a social worker and we are educated to serve ALL people and to actually overcome whatever prejudices we have. That’s actually part of the social work curriculum. My boyfriend thought that it didn’t really make sense, knowing me, so I of course went to YouTube and watched a video with him. It’s a great video and I do recommend it.

Kat Blaque video Is Jeffree Star racist

Jeffree Star never apologized for racist video

One of the things that Kat Blaque says, and I do hope you watched her whole video because I do recommend it, she is not a Jeffree Star fangirl like I am, is that he never apologized for the video that he made 12 years ago. I didn’t think that was true but I didn’t know of a place that I could definitively say “yes he apologized” only that as many people say he apologized as say he didn’t – it was all really just word of mouth.

Jeffree Star addresses accusations that he is a racist because of a video he made 12 years agoI’m glad I grew up before Youtube and camera phones existed

One of the things that is mentioned in the above video is something that I’ve always felt about this situation, that is that everyone does stuff that they regret once they know better. Some of us are old enough that we do not have videos following us around for the rest of our lives. I’m only 5 or 6 years older than Jeffree is but that span of time was enough to make a lot of my crazy, drunken, early 20s antics safe from being preserved for posterity. I know beyond a shadow of a doubt video and photos of me that I would regret would be on the internet if I were 26 right now instead of 36, so I always empathized with that aspect of this story because I am not the person that I was 10 years ago or 15 years ago so I understood that who he is as a cosmetics creator is not who he was when he was an entertainer on Myspace doing whatever he felt would get the most controversy and views.

Does apologizing make it ok?

No. An apology doesn’t erase what is done but I think that it’s something to pay attention to. Jeffree released a video on YouTube June 20th to finally address those videos and how he feels about them today. I think it is worth watching. He owns up to his actions, acknowledges that they were “vile”, explains that he was angry and looking for attention but also expressly states that he knows that is not an excuse. Truthfully, he is doing fine and making tons of money so he did not have to make a video addressing this but you can tell that the situation hurts him.

I don’t care I won’t ever support him because of what he did, period

That is your right. I know there are people out there who will say I am a racist for supporting Jeffree but that is not accurate. I think he made a mistake and has learned from it and apologized – something that many celebrities never do for the horrible things Jeffree Star Alternative Press Magazine cover and Summer 2016 Collection Velour Liquid Lipstick Limited Editionthey say/do. I think that Jeffree is scapegoated. There are plenty of other CEOs and companies with racist practices that actually exploit minorities but no one is boycotting them because it’s easy to not buy lipstick online – it’s a lot harder to not shop at Wal-mart (which I do not) because they keep people in poverty and to not buy oranges because they use undocumented migrant workers. I could list hundreds of examples but I won’t.

Makeup has no race or gender

The one thing that I loved the first time I discovered Jeffree Star Cosmetics was how the website had swatches on different skin types. That has become more common especially with independent makeup companies but mainstream makeup is still really marketed to white women. The entire industry is racist frankly. To not show swatches on several different skin types is indicative of that. We have been having discussions in feminist circles for decades about lack of representation of women of color, of the use of their bodies to sell products, of them being used like props in videos for people like Taylor Swift. I can remember when the only model of color was Naomi Campbell. It hasn’t really gotten that much better in the last 20 years. I honestly never thought that I would see a man in an advertisement for makeup.

Jeffree Star and Nikita Dragun in the Velour Liquid Lipstick Holiday 2016 collection with limited edition color SaggitariusBottom line it’s the best liquid lipstick on the market

I have seen lots of stuff about Jeffree’s products being crappy but that has not been my experience. I actually didn’t use lipstick every day until I tried the Velour Liquid Lipsticks because they don’t have to constantly be reapplied. I love the products, I have never had any trouble with any of them. Like any brand, some stay for longer than others, but they are not drying, only the very lightest shades are patchy, and they are well worth the $18 price point.
I have disabled comments on this post because I don’t want a bunch of hate and “Your [sic] a racist” comments from people who don’t bother to actually read what I have written. If you want to send me hate you can easily find me on social media.